Right now, i already came to the conclusion of something. I made this decision even it's so hard for me to live on it. things done doesn't give me the right definition of what i thought. as time goes by, i just can't understand myself. i can't find the correct word to tell my feelings at this exact moments. lot of things happened. there must be a reason for it, and yes, i am frustrated, and miserable, and one million percent unhappy.
I'm not expect people come to me and understands my emotions as right now. Am i too exaggerate? yeah, because i can't figure it out. why i made this decision? because i DAMNLY hate myself. i hate my feeling, i hate my emotions, i hate the way i think on something and the most hatred is when i just can't realize the way i are. being unethical was a reason i came to this decision. I'm so tired of being ME.! It doesn't means that i wanna be other in myself, but, what i gonna do is to keep myself from other's life.
i'm so fed up with myself. Why should i do this? because, i just an ordinary people. i can't cope with everything that happened. there are voice keep asking me to hold on it.
i wish that i will never me
i feel so blurry right now. I don't even know who i am
after all, the pain inside will never be cured as it leave me the right sign of being stubborn
Yes, I am...
I'm so tired of demanding to others , and now, it come to the end of everything
I will not do it anymore
not going to seek something that will never be
whatever it is, there is something people should know about me, about my principle(maybe)
"for you, i bleed myself dry"