I AM STRONG ENOUGH

BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T CRY AT ALL

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Three kinds of love

There are three kinds of love, - unselfish, mutual, and selfish.

1) The unselfish love is of the highest kind. The lover only minds the welfare of the beloved and does not care for his own sufferings.

2) In mutual love the lover not only wants the happiness of his beloved but has an eye towards his own happiness also. It is middling.

3) The selfish love is the lowest. It only looks towards its own happiness, no matter whether the beloved suffers weal or woe.

A lovable year

2009, just like a sweet dream

Should I believe it as a nightmare?

I don’t know…

By the way, 2009 gave me 1001 experiences, memories and lessons.

It such a great year of mine,

Why?

It seems like a long journey that I have taken.

I become elder, does it make me mature enough?

Doh, age is about number, mature is about thinking and the way u reacts.

Who cares?

Well, when thinking about the age, it suddenly reminds me about my childhood memories.

I still remember when my teacher asked me what I gonna be within 10 years,

My answer just like moron…

In a simple word, I told him I never have an ambition,

What I gonna be is what I wanna do.

Aha, it silly enough…

I should be thankful,

I have achieved lot of things…

1)I’m graduated in the middle of this year. Yuhuu, I got my Diploma already. I am diploma holder now!

2)M y convocation was held in a day before my birthday! It such a present for me!

3)I got an opportunity to further my study in Degree level. One step ahead to achieve the prosperity.

4)I got Dean List for the second times! Both in this year!

5)I have learned the value of friendship. A special thank to Firdaus Hamzah aka Chandramuki, Ahmad Fairus Awang aka Apai Ayam and Mahadir Ladisma @awis aka Along for being part of my life. You guy such a good friends!

6)I have my lover! It is a precious thing in my life! After 21 years avoiding myself from being love, at last, I found the right person at the right time and the right moment. It such a God’s gift. Thank my dear! Thanks for your love.

Are these all?

Haha, for sure no. if I gonna put them all here, I’m sure it will be lengthen.
Anywhere, these are the things I won’t forget ever!

Thanks 2009…
Hello 2010…

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Today's quote

Love is the kind of illness that does not spare the intelligent or the dull.

"Albert Camus, Caligula"

Friday, December 25, 2009

Reasons why i fell in love with you








I still remember the first song you sang for me.
It’s really nice!
That’s the first reason I love you so much!



The ring!
OMG..
I can’t believe it..
It makes me hypnotized!

For every hour, minutes and seconds…
I just keep thinking of you.
Why I fall in love with you?
Just because you did the same thing like me…

Armlet..
It tight up our relationship…

New moon?
It was our first time watching midnight movie
And we walked together under the rain falling down in the middle of the night.
I won’t forget it!!

You wrote me your name when we’re together on top of the sheet of tissue.
You drew me a small “orang lidi” as it presents me…
Huhu, its funny dear… I like it..

Somebody could be someone...


Somebody is very proud of you.
somebody is thinking of you.
somebody is caring about you.
somebody misses you.
somebody wants to talk to you.
somebody wants to be with you.
somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.
somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
somebody wants to hold your hand.
somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
somebody wants you to be happy.
somebody is celebrating your successes.
somebody wants to give you a gift.
somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
somebody wants to hug you.
somebody loves you.
somebody admires your strength.
somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
somebody thinks the world of you.
somebody wants to protect you.
somebody would do anything for you.
somebody wants to be forgiven.
somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
somebody wants to laugh with you.
somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
somebody values your advice.
somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
somebody treasures your spirit.
somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
somebody can't wait to see you.
somebody loves you for who you are.
somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
somebody is alive because of you.
somebody wants to get to know you better.
somebody hears a song that reminds them of you."

You might have someone who is always with you all the time. But, do you find them just like “somebody”?

Yeah, if your answer is just like above-mentioned, go for It.! You are someone who is loved by “somebody”

What are you waiting for?

Be thankful because you may be a person who is lucky enough!

Peoples might says love and be loved are two different ways, but when you are in love, you will see how it inspires your days.

Do not leave your “somebody”, because “somebody” is rarely to be found in anywhere!

A special person


It’s not the presence of someone that brings meaning to life, but it’s the way that someone touches your heart which gives life a beautiful meaning.

Nice people are like a mystery, you’ll never know what’s inside their heart but you will
always feel their presence and their warmth.

Dear, if u read this, you have to know that you are my special person!

Love you so much!

Do remind that your presence makes my life greater...

Am I foolish myself for loving you?

I would say that I am crazy of your endless love…

I miss u…

Sesuatu yang membuatkan kita lupa tentang sesuatu…



I’m sitting here, think about you. I miss your smile, eyes, words, kindness and everything about you.

I think I would never love again.

I’m dying, I miss you standing by my side.

Let me tell you how I feel,

kau cinta pertamaku

Kau cinta terakhirku

Tiada apa yang bisa menafikan cinta kita…

I’m so sorry, I’m not a perfect person for you.

I just wanna let u know that this love I have inside is everything I have in my life…

Nothing gonna change my love for you…

Kau lah laguku dan kau irama terindah dalam hidupku..

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

A lovely sunset...



Look at the sky.  I am not alone.  The whole universe is friendly to me and conspires only to give the best to those who dream and work.

Upon reaching the beach, both of my cell phones turns off as the battery “kong” already. I hate that moment! I miss 100% of the shots that I never take! Huh it doesn’t matter. The most important is the experience that I discovered!

While I’m sitting next to my “someone”, we’re looking at the sun falling down with lovely feelings inside my heart.

I do hope this love would last ever as the sun shining the earth for every day!
I love to see sunset.

Why am I doing so?

It gives me pleasure, happiness, soul, delight and contentment.
You might feel the same way as mine if you notice that other people shines your days for every seconds past!

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

I don't know whether my life has been a success or a failure. But not having any anxiety about becoming one instead of the other, and just taking things as they come along, I've had a lot of extra time to enjoy life.

My “someone” told me, why should us become upset?

Life must go on

If you wasting your time by thinking the undesirable things, u just like didn’t know how to chill your days and you might lost the precious moments which won’t ever come again.

So, just let it go, let by gone be by gone.

And in the end, the love you take, Is equal to the love you made.
To be loved, you have to love someone with a sincere heart. Gives everything as you can,

your trust,

your commitment,

your time and

your love.!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Does it important for us to remember?

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry,

Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares,

Its faults and blunders, its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.

All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday.

We cannot undo a single act we performed;

We cannot erase a single word we said.Yesterday is gone forever.

The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow

With all its possible adversities, its burdens,its large promise and its poor performance;

Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.

Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise.

Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet to be born.

This leaves only one day, Today.

Any person can fight the battle of just one day.

It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities

Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down.

How to be a good person?

1) Be a positive thinker! you may be a good person when u can see the invisible

2) Be humble all time. don't let your ego haunting you in future

3) Be thankful. pray all the time, never forget that life is greater when you know how to appreciate it!

4) Never regret! for everything you have done, go for it! don't turn back!

5) Respect people!

6) Never say no to your mother!

7) Have someone who might inspire you in all time!!

Each day too short...


24 hours in a day...

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see

its too short..!!

but peoples might waste it by doing nasty things..

when it come to the ends, we'll see how precious it was

for time being, appreciate peoples who cares about you!

at least you still have the times to learn the value of life...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

My idol!!


I'm wasting my time watching movies through my lappy, facebooking the whole days and surfing the internet looking for the information regarding scholarship. the best thing is, I always visit Tun Mahathir's web blog. i love to do it, for me, Tun is my idol!

I like the way he inspire others. i like his speech, it awesome and mesmerize!

sometime, leaders are there, the question is, are they charismatic enough to be a good leader?


if given chances, i wish i could be there, standing beside him! snap lot of pictures with him.!!

I have downloaded one of Tun's speech during UMNO Annual General Meeting. The title of the speech is about "The Unfinished Business".

anyway, a million thanks to Tun! you are such heaven's gift!

May God bless you!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Between?

Anxiety is the space between the "now" and the "then"


Richard Abell

Is this who i am?

Starting the day by looking at the phone with hope my "someone" wish me a good day. ahakz, i took the quiz while I'm facebooking last night, before that, i would like to thanks to my love aka "someone" for lending me the broadband. no need to go to CC..!

ok, this are the results of the quiz. It's all about my personality. I just wonder something.. it's not as who i am!

1.Calm and quiet
* I don't think so, actually i am extrovert person.!

2.You are the sort of person who likes to take life slowly. just one day at a time.
* Totally wrong! i always rushing even things are not important.

3.You usually know the difference between right and wrong.
* Ya, ordinary people think the same thing.

4.You believe in yourself.
*No, its not me! i lacking of self-confident.

5.You put yourself in other peoples shoes and see how it feels to be them and then handle a situation accordingly.
*i always do it, its inspires me to be better

6.Your attitude towards life is very positive.
* That's why i am who i am now!

7.You are liked by all and are a great friend.
*Maybe, i have lot of best friends.!! but i have my foes too.

8.The flip side is that sometimes you care too much about other people and don't do what you really wanna do..
*i have to admit this! this is what i always do especially for those people i love and always care! this is the way to show how much i love "someone"..!!!

Sweet December

Sometimes, people do not realize how amazing life are. for every seconds we breath, every minutes we spent, every hours gone, we just can't imagine how it lives our life. it comes to my mind why should i create this blog? the reasons are:

I do realize that my life has become more meaningful lately because of "someone" who really cares and love comes and grabbed my heart.!

For the rest of my life, this is actually the first time i have someone special in my heart. this Sweet December is no longer be the same bored semester breaks like before,why? because every second of mine is like heaven!

Yet to know, i have deleted my previous blog because it was like a nightmare.! i throw out all of my memories there. for those people who had read it before, i just wanna say thanks!

This is the Sweet December for me. after 21 years avoiding myself from falling in love, at last i have to admit that i have to surrender form this puzzle games. 1st December 2009 is the most happiest day of mine! i have been approached by "Someone" and officially declared as couple. without experience and preparation, this love teaches me how to appreciate someone.!

When we're in love, we could be the other person. I'm not saying that i am pretender. what I'm gonna say is, we'll do anything just because of love! in a simple word we call it as "sacrifice". you know why? you may do anything even it opposite of your believes! then you'll see how precious your life are especially when you do the right things just to show how great your love is!

Its difficult for me translate what's come in my mind into words. I just hope it will be the greatest moments for me as i revealing the best thing of my life.!

P/s: To my "SOMEONE", i just want you to know that you are everything for me.!
you're like a God's gift which i won't ever leave!!
I love U so much!!