Happy Birthday!!!

Yang tulus ikhlas Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas

Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Selamat ulang tahun sayang Kini kau bersayap,
pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita 'kan bertemu

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan


Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia

Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu

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your birthday reminds me
That I really want to say
I’m very glad I know you
I think of you each day.


I hope you enjoy your birthday, even i am not around with you
All the pleasures it has in store,
And because I appreciate you,
I hope you have many more!



i wish i could stand in front of you,
hold a rose and wish you happy birthday...

but,
i realize that i am nothing for you...

Me gustaría poder estar delante de ustedes y les deseo un feliz cumpleaños ..
yo en realidad te adoro
-KAR-

I Like This!!

Dear Firdaus Ahmad,

Based on PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY TEST, You’re an ideal boyfriend. You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love her. You give your all...

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.


Here is the analysis:


웃 : Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner.
웃 : You’re usually expressive...
웃 : You search for love...
웃 : You appreciate simple things in life...
웃 : You’re independent!

aha, dear test..here is my comparison through the analysis:

1-Mysterious?

wow, i can't believe it. but some people say so..i accept this..

2-Expressive?

hmm yup sure. when it comes to the thinks out of my control, i will throw it out.
but sometimes i can be so introvert.. for me silent is better.. i accept this

3- search for love?

totally wrong!! i'm not looking for love. seriously no! for time being i am so trauma with love. I'm not gonna hurt my feeling again. say no to love!! I REJECT this...

4- appreciate simple things in life?

yes i do! people never know how deep i appreciate every single things they did for me. FYI, i still keep all the thing "Someone" gave to me even we are no longer in a relationship nor friend. i still have the flower given by "someone" when we were met in some place because it has their own moments. can you see how i appreciate simple things in life?
so, i totally accept this.

5- independent?

yup sure. whatever happen, come what may, i can survive in my own. i still remember how suffer it is when i was leaved by someone (even now i still fighting for the feelings). it takes all my life time to heal my broken heart. so, my life theme from now on and onwards,
"i will survive"!! go yau!! you can do it!!

Kisah Budak Terlajak Perahu...

There is one question comes to my mind when I saw this particular bullshit statement. hmm, I thought learn in IPT will make us become more mature than people who have no opportunity to further their study in higher learning institution. I pity to this silly guy who have became popular in a very short period.

hey dude, who are you to judge people hah? are you good enough? hmm if you think that you are better than others, it should be okay, but, never drop other's dignity by saying that moron statement.

to judge people, we have to look at their attitude, so i can consider that you are stupid enough because of your behavior.! learn in whatever institution is doesn't matter. as long as you perform is enough to prove how good you are!


it sound sad because the statement is actually comes from our Malay! can you see how stumpy our people's mind? huh it is not about being racist, but its all about our behavior of plummet the others. is this the outcome that u learn from university? hey come on la... you are university student dude, be more mature please!

like what malay people say: terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajar kata badan binasa...

Peoples out there, think first before you keep doing something unintelligent. people observing us! do reminds that!!

Kenapa Dengan Hari ni?

bangun je pagi tadi diselubungi 1001 rasa dalam hati. secara zahirnya nampak tenang, tapi didalam hanya tuhan yang memahami. entah kenapa, hari ni rasa seperti ingin menangis sepuas-puasnya. dalam hati penuh dengan rasa hiba, sedih, suram, pilu dan yang penting sekali segala kenangan lama terimbau kembali. dah aku cuba sedaya upaya menolak segala rasa itu, tetapi tidak berdaya.


mungkin di saat ini aku terlalu memerlukan orang2 tersayang untuk dekat dengan aku, mendengar rintihan hati yang sudah lama aku pendam. ia sukar untuk ditafsirkan kerana terlalu mendalam. sebagai manusia biasa, apa yang mampu aku lakukan adalah mendekatkan diri pada yang Esa, akan tetapi tidak mudah untuk mengusir segala rasa itu. terlalu perit, terlalu sakit.

sudah lama aku pendamkan ia sebagai satu kalimah yang lain tidak pernah fahami apa yang aku cuba sampaikan. rasanya dah lama air mata tidak mengalir kerana aku hanya memendam rasa dalam hati. pelbagai tohmahan aku terima bagi menguatkan hati, akan tetapi x terdaya aku melawannya.

hari ni terlalu suram bagi aku. hati seorang perindu yang hanya memendam rasa yang masih tertinggal dalam hati. mungkin kau tidak merasakannya kerana bagimu ia hanya permainan jiwa. cubalah sejenak untuk merasa apa yang tersingkap dalam hati ini, lalu kau akan mengerti betapa pedihnya hati ini. terlalu perit! sakit sangat!!!



dengan apa yang kau lakukan, aku terima seadanya kerana perasaan SAYANG yang terlalu mendalam dalam hati ini. mungkin kau takkan tahu betapa aku sanjungi dirimu sampaikan aku terpaksa merelakan setiap apa yang kau lakukan bagi menyakiti hati ini. aku biarkan kau hidup dengan duniamu yang indah belaka itu, berbanding aku yang hanya melayari hari2ku dengan segala kepedihan. dah aku biarkan berlalu tirai kisah semalam, tetapi apa yang ada kini hanyalah rasa untuk meniti titian kesepian. sebagaimana yang banyak dikatakan orang, CINTA ITU SUCI, sucinya cinta bukan bermakna ia tidak mengharap balasan. cinta mengharap balasan cinta...

jika derita merindu itu membuatkan aku bahagia,
MAKA AKU PILIH DERITA...

::kerana kau tak pernah tahu betapa berharga sekali dirimu buat hati ini::

I Need An Ample Time...

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace, where there is hatred
let me sow love, where there is injury
pardon, where there is doubt
faith where there is despair
hope, where there is darkness
light and where there is sadness, joy.

Every day I live I am more convinced that the waste of life lies in the love we have not given, the powers we have not used, the selfish prudence that will risk nothing and which, shirking pain, misses happiness as well...

Love alone can unite living beings so as to complete and fulfill them...
for it alone joins them by what is deepest in themselves. All we need is to imagine our ability to love developing until it embraces the totality of men and the earth....

Apa lagi alasan nak kau beri
Setelah diri ku di simbah hinaan
Tergamam ku seketika
Tak sangka ini jadi nya
Nampak sangat ku seorang
Bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kemanakah
Hendak aku selindungkan
Air muka yang kau malu kan

Malam ini janggal ku rasakan
Sendiri melalui detik yang sedih
Perit sekali
Pertama kali bagi ku
Hitung bintang seorang diri
Dan pertama kali jua
Maruah ini di persenda
Oleh insan yang ku cinta
Oleh insan yang ku sayang
Kini bermusuhan

Jika ku imbas kisah lama
Semua nya indah semua
Bila aku menduga mu
Kuat nya kasih mu
Pada aku
Di ketika itu

Sayang seribu kali sayang
Akhirnya kecundang jua
Kasih yang lama terjalin
Mudah sungguh kasih mu
Berpaling
Dan yang lebih menyedihkan lagi
Aku bagai ditampar
Oleh bahasa mu
Yang tak sepatut nya

Engkau ucapkan
Kau menyinta kerna apa
Kau menyayang ada makna
Kau berubah ada penyebab nya

Tiada Tajuknya...

dia yg mulakan hubungan ni.......

dia yg bg harapan.......

dia yg mengetuk pintu yg da lama terkunci

dia yg hulurkan sebentuk cincin sebuah perhubungan

dia yg mencintaiku sepenuh hati

dia yg sllu ader dalam hati aku

dia yg menghidupkan hari2ku

dia yg menemani tidur malam aku

dia segala2 nya

dia tidak indah di mata

dia tidak dekat di hati

tp cintanya cukup menggetarkan batin aku

tp kini kenapa dia menghilang......

tanpa berita......

apa salah aku.....

kenapa dia tidak pulangkan cinta hati aku

kenapa dia seolah2 membenci aku.

apa dosa aku pd dia.

sehingga untuk menjadi sekadar sahabat pun tidak sanggup.

terlalu besar kah dosa aku pada dia

dosa yg aku sendiri pn tidak tahu.

im way more screwed up than u are...

While being in love there are two requirements: heart breaking and
healing. Healing takes time.
I.Firdaus (2010).

Switch~

Suppose I gonna be in Langkawi by this week.

But I have changed my mind already.

It was a good plan to go to Langkawi as I have a good deal with someone to be there before.

But, things changed as people changed too.

I switch my plan from Langkawi to Pangkor Island

Hey Pangkor! Here I come. Help me seize the day with a wonderful tick!

I call this vacation as a Journey of Hope!

I will try my best to heal my broken heart by being there.

I have tried so many things to alleviate these feelings, but It didn’t work as I wish.

But its okay, soon I could find my new disco stick!

It will transcend the happiness of mine as you have yours!

Chill…

Pangkor, wait for me...

Let's flirt

what?
flirt?

it's time to have fun!

Stolen kisses are always sweetest.

10th June gonna makes me crazy

I have been to hell and back. yes I'm back already!
I had a very, very bad nervous breakdown.
owhhh my examination result will be announced soon
What it will be?

let's the time fix it...

huh